It's been a month and a half now, since I had any Real free time to myself. And when I say free time, I mean time to relax and not worry about anything. Since the middle of last month, I've been spending everyday; rehearsing for one of 5 dance pieces I'm in for this semester's dance show at my school, rehearsing for an upcoming show at the dinner theater in Amesbury I work at, going to school and nearly passing out due to exhaustion, or having to do something that my parents have asked me to do.
Though, if I am to become a film or stage actor, I should get use to the fact that most of my time will be taken up by shows or films I'll be acting in. But never the less, it's more then very difficult to balance all this stuff, and my personal life, meaning the time i spend with my girlfriend.
tonight, she called me and complained that I don't txt her as much as I used to before. This really started setting me off the edge, as if I didn't have enough things on my mind to worry about. so in my fit of aggravated rage I kept explaining to her that it's really hard for me to remember to txt her when i get a free second, without feeling tired enough to forget to txt her. This of course made her cry a little bit, which made me start to cry a little bit, because in all honesty, i don't know what to do to make all this stress and pressure go away.
Finally, after I talked with her on the phone, about a half hour ago, I broke down on the floor for a good ten minutes. It was actually a pretty good method of scream therapy, if you want to call it that.
I'm better now. I just want to know that I'm not alone in this. Weather any of you are fellow actors or just regulars who have gone through a busy season, like me, then please someone say something, any kind of advice you can give me.
I send this blog as both a story of how the day in my life has been going, and as a request for advice for anyone who is willing to give it for an actor and a person in need of it.
